So I’ve been doing some thinking, and I think I’ve finally decided to do something. Or something like that. Or would it be something like something? Either way.
REGARDLESS… While I was downstairs overhauling my basement with my husband this weekend, I realized that my life is in dire need of some serious spring cleaning. We managed to fill half a commercial dumpster with the stuff we threw away, and my back is currently screaming in agony from the moving and lifting and cleaning and organizing over the last two days. The outcome of the overhaul is going to be an office for me – a place to store my books and my craft stuff and with my shiny new cheap computer tower, a place to write. (Granted there will be whole days lost in the pursuit of video games, but that’s another story for another day).
So with this new office comes this new sense of “what the hell am I doing?”
Well, I’m writing, for one. But there’s more to it than that. I don’t ever sit still. I’m always doing something. Whether I’m cooking or crocheting or writing or reading, or playing with my daughter, or even making lanyard key chains, there’s always something in my hands to fill my time. And I realized this morning that this blog very much reflects the indecision in my life. So I’m going to make a conscious effort to stop that all-over-the-place-ness and focus. While I won’t be taking down anything from the past, I will be more focused going forward.
That focus is going to have to bleed into every aspect of my life. I have to be a little less accessible online. I have to start disconnecting and actually working instead of just talking about working. I also have to stop being so agreeable. I love helping people and I love the work I do for them. But I’m going to have to cut it back to the basics. I’m not saying I”m going to completely stop helping out. I just have to learn to be more assertive; to tell people when I’m covered up and not capable of doing things. It’s hard, but it’s a skill I have to learn.
Also, most of you know that I have two blogs because I write under two names. That’s part of the problem right there. The literary schizophrenia is starting to take its toll. While I have no intention of shutting one or the other down, I do intend to focus different parts of my life into different blogs. That’s the key here… FOCUS.
(such as it is)
On this blog, there will be the occasional rant or random post, but the majority of the content here will be:
FICTION – I read. A lot. And I write, so it’s a fair focal point.
FOOD – I cook. Again, a lot. And I like to share the things I’ve created with the world. I’m even considering writing a cookbook or two.
MUSIC – because I love it. Deal with it.
Then there’s the other blog. For those that don’t know, I’m also Siobhan Kinkade, and her scribblings are at http://www.siobhankinkade.wordpress.com. The focus there will be as follows:
ROMANCE FICTION – Siobhan is a romance writer, and we read romance, so we’re going to talk about it. Possibly to each other. It’ll be weird.
CRAFTS – We crochet and knit and make lanyards and play with feathers. And we like to talk about it. Craft patterns are definitely possible.
I’m compartmentalizing my brain, I suppose. But that’s okay. We’ll call it a coping mechanism, and one sorely needed after living in this battered, beat up brain for so long. So there you have it. Expect a revamp soon. It’s coming…I just don’t know when exactly.